Shawn Koh

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Went to Ikea and saw this pair of pink flip-flops / sandals / whateveryoucallit. Bought it for fun and laughter..... Now I'm more and more like Pinky, wondered if my mood swing will be as drastic as his.....



Nice right? Now I have this pair of whateveryoucallit to pair up with my pink specs.... hahahaha

Gathered at Alvin's house for erm.... gathering....



When people are tossing the Yu-sheng, Vincent was caught eating already!!!! Tsk Tsk Tsk



As they say, the photographer will never capture his own face in his masterpiece. How true... If you want your face to be seen, don't buy camera!

Had steamboat dinner at my place again.



Special appearance: Shiting and Jess...


The day ended when everybody is watching some of us play the ever-classic Super Mario Bros on my Plasma TV. The game was an instant hit for everybody. Brings back the childhood memories.

CNY eve, went down to China-town to enjoy the perspiration. I scared the weather not hot enough, so purposely wear thicker clothings.




Don't know why walk walk walk, walk until Indian Temple and Ian insisted to take a photo there....

Then we drifted to the new Tooth-Relic Temple in the heart of china-town and took a few crazy pictures there....


I even french-kissed the dragon


Thats my crazy cny eve. Had reunion dinner at Carlton Hotel. $52 per pax. Super expansive...

Read a pretty true statement today:
it is emotions that makes us humans....

how true, many times we do things devoid of emotions, there are so many SOPs to follow that we often Just do without thinking more... How our actions hurt people. How monotoneous we have become.

i feel a wave of loneliness as i type these stuff because i've failed! As a husband, i've failed to fulfil my duties as a husband. As a father, i've failed to fulfill my duty as a father. I've failed to even provide the very basic needs to my wife, i've failed miserably.
is my failure going to impede me from becoming better? Maybe so, maybe not. We'll see!We'll see!

i will change... I will change... For better or for worse, i don't know...

Today I'm going to introduce 4 different types of organic substances currently undergoing research led by Dr. Shawn Koh, founder of these substances.

Emoane

      H
       |
H-EMO-H
       |
      H

Emoene

    H     H
     |      |
EMO=EMO
     |      |
    H     H

Emonol

       H
        |
H-EMO-O-H
        |
       H

Emonoic Acid

H-EMO=O
       \
       O-H

Isoemors are compounds that have the same molecular formula but different structural formulae.

Emoene are said to be unsaturated because it contains a double-bond.  This double-bond can open up to undergo addition reaction to form Emoane.

Emoane are said to be saturated because all the bonds are being taken up. Emoane undergo substitution reactions in the presence of UV light as a catalyst.

Combustion of Emoane and Emoene would yield carbon dioxide and water although Emoene would have a higher probability of producing carbon monoxide.

Emonol contains an OH group and undergoes oxidation to form Emonoic Acid and water. These are the people who after crying, becomes very acidic and would bring about burning sensation upon physical contact.

Emonoic Acid generally behaves like a weak acid and would react with metals, carbonates and bases readily to form another compound.

Lastly, Emonol and Emonoic Acid would react together in a reaction known as Esteremocation. Esteremos have sweet smells.

Don't get what I'm typing? More to come. Its just the intellect expressing himself. Every statement has an understatement and it takes another intellect to decipher the encrypted message. One needs to have the public key of Shawn because he used his private key to encrypt the message.

Dr Shawn Koh belongs to one of the homologous series.

Watched 美味关系 on channel 256 (yah, I know, alot of you don't have this channel at home. Its from digital tier, don't 羡慕） for the 2nd time and have the following review...............

Look! I'm so pro that I've got this poster given to me!!!!!


I'm the wedding Buddha!

I'm so pro that I even planned for her church wedding....

I can't breathe, I sense myself sinking down the abyss, as the air in my lungs are forced out of my body. Panic grips me as I fall like a lead weight at terminal velocity.

The deeper I go, the inability of light penetrating through the aether becomes more real as less and less of it reaches my iris.

I feel helpless. I feel alone. I slowly lose my sense of descent as my surrounding slowly becomes homogeneous. Sometimes I feel that I'm floating, sometimes I feel that I'm stationary, but deep inside me, logic tells me I'm plummeting.

They say this is the feeling you'll experience as you travel to space, but I'm sure that in space, the lungs are not deflated. Weightlessness... yes, that's the word. Weightlessness is the word used to describe lack of gravity.

Am I really experiencing weightlessness? No, I am not. I'm experiencing reverse systematic desensitization. A syndrome Man has yet to promulgate officially. A feeling that is pretty familiar to me. Its all coming back to me now.....

I shout, but the longitudinal waves produced through my larynx cannot propagate outwards. I cry, but tears never seem to appear.

I imagine myself as I continue to descent. Wide-eyed, emotionless and dazed. I seem to focus at something very far. The image formed at the back of my eye is diminished.

As I'm helpless, I begin to focus. To focus on something beyond physical limitations. To focus on God.

Is Elmo the solution to emo? Guess everybody still needs a cartoon to be with them / to represent their current state of mind. Some choose Bubbles, Yunting chooses buttercup,  Jo chooses Eeyore, stupid girl & stupid boy chooses Minnie Mouse, Kelly Chan and Neo chooses Elmo, Mavis Fan chooses Snoopy.



But that's not the point. The point is neither about proving that cartoons are not just for kids (they never are anyway). Ever wondered why people need soft-toys? We need soft-toys because they cannot trust humans to be with us when we are feeling down. Its the soft-toys who accompanied us in our darkest moment..... primarily because they can't talk, and they are ever-soft. Human needs hugs....

And that's the point... that human are getting more and more emotional, to the extent of screwing up their lives when we listen to ourselves too much. Our emotions, when too heavily relied on, obscures our vision and creates self-pity in us. Not to say that feeling emotional isn't good, but feeling too emotional really is not our cup of tea.

We feel lonely, we feel sad, we feel left-out, and nobody cares. That's the true picture of the world. Nothing can change all these things except for true love that stems from within. Nothing can change us, unless we accept the love of others.

Why am I going through all theses things? What does God want me to learn? Do I really need to go through all these unnecessary emotions and go through the tearing apart of myself before I can be put to good use? People are troubled, so am I. Why do some people have their avenues to rattle off while some don't? There are some guys that get so lonely that they spend hours and hours at Balcony Bar relating to anybody that are with them, in the hope of finding comfort. There are some guys that get so lonely that they spend hours and hours smoking and smoking and smoking their lives away, because nobody is there to talk to them....

Out there, there are more, its just that I do not have the ability to care for everybody without first caring for the people that are dear to me first. My wife, my closer group of friends and myself. And me, although I may be very enthusiastic about certain things, there are certain things that I totally lacked discipline, and I'm in the midst of banging my skull on the wall for these things. Find me a wall with a protruding nail and I'll dash to it!

Why God? Why? Its tearing me apart!
What am I talking about anyway? Its 4.25am and I'm blogging..... go and spend more efforts in studying lah! I haven't even prepared for my Church School's lessons yet..... Totally lack of discipline....

1 Corinthians 13:1-13

If I speak in the tongues of men and angels,
but have not love,
I have become sounding brass or a tinkling symbol. 

And if I have prophecy and know all mysteries and all knowledge,
and if I have all faith so as to remove mountains,
but have not love, I am nothing. 

And if I dole out all my goods, and
if I deliver my body that I may boast
but have not love, nothing I am profited.

Love is long suffering, 
love is kind,
it is not jealous, 
love does not boast,
it is not inflated.

It is not discourteous,
it is not selfish,
it is not irritable,
it does not enumerate the evil.
It does not rejoice over the wrong, but rejoices in the truth 
 

It covers all things,
it has faith for all things,
it hopes in all things,
it endures in all things.

Love never falls in ruins;
but whether prophecies, they will be abolished; or
tongues, they will cease; or
knowledge, it will be superseded.

For we know in part and we prophecy in part.

But when the perfect comes, the imperfect will be superseded.  

When I was an infant,
I spoke as an infant,
I reckoned as an infant;

when I became [an adult],
I abolished the things of the infant. 

For now we see through a mirror in an enigma, but then face to face. Now I know in part, but then I shall know as also I was fully known. 

But now remains
 faith, hope, love,

these three;

but the greatest of these is love.

Craved for good foooooooood and went to Suki Sushi while Ian is having his lessons in school! :)


AmaEbi sashimi..... I eat 10 per mouthful... 10 pieces costs $5. Luckily it was buffet!


What remains of the prawns. These prawns already costs $50. Break even liao... even before touching the rest of the food.... :)


Don't think Evonne cannot eat, she also ate a large amount of sashimi....

Ok, the previous post was pretty shallow because I was rushing to work and had to finish it quick. This is the actual cheemer version about my Buru trip.

Upon arrival to Buru, while we were still sorting out some stuff to discard due to CNY, the kids started appearing and we had to start the day's programme half an hour earlier. I chose 3 action-packed songs for them to sing so that I can tire them out but achieved the opposite reaction.... we were singing "as we walk to the left, as we walk to the right" so many times that at the end, Simin and I shared an exhausted look with each other, unable to catch our breath while the kids still are packed with energy to want to sing more.... Too much action drains our energy away..... We also sang 一切歌颂赞美 and 7 times a day... all action filled to make them enthu..... reminds me of Hi-5 as we were leading the programme.

plus revised all the colours with them in english and bahasa indonesia. Luckily I know abit of the basic colours in bahasa Indonesia so that I can relate to them. This is where my military background come into play. The malay words of command....

For chinese lesson, taught them many new words and made them write down the bahasa indonesian equivalent in their exercise book so that they will remember what the words mean.....

We had freshly caught fishes for dinner with rice before jumping into art & craft session, making lanterns using red packets. The session left me with a pretty bad neckache as all the kids were rushing to me to staple, hole-punch and tie their red packets. I didn't even have time to lift up my head......

After the exhausting curriculum, I caught Jiajia with her ultra tired eyes dozing off abit while Simin is still teaching those present-continuous tenses, past participle tenses to the 18 year olds.... super cheem lor, Bernice and I were like... this type of things how to teach????? But she's good... she managed to relate all these language stuff to the youths.

Bernice used many left-over red-packets to make a big 寿球 for the host. The day ended with a 2 minute walk to see the fire-flies decorate the trees in the open and all of us lying down at the jetty gazing at the many stars in the sky, eating 'epok epok', an equivalent of Kali-Pok in Singapore. Ultra relaxing......

Sunday started at 6.15 when we woke up and set off to catch the first boat back to Tanjung Balai and finally back to Singapore. Had Ba Kut Teh at Tanjung Balai for brunch. Arrived in the garden city at around 1pm and bid goodbye to each other after having lunch at Seah Im hawker centre.

Next, the rest of the photos.....



the 18 year old girl

Came back from Buru (Indonesia) after my maiden journey into Missions. Tried to escape from doing these for years but guess as the saying goes: you can run, but you can't hide.... didn't want to be involved in missions because I'm afraid of the attachments there... well.... Buru did leave me many memories... I'll be going there more in the future.....

I'll just feature the all the photos with me inside... the rest of the people are not so significant... hahaahaha... egoistic me as usual.... The Buru people guessed correctly, I'm 21 years old this year!!! hahahaha.



Got called into their immigration office for questioning during customs clearance, but when I pulled out my Military Identity Card, no question asked.... they let me go immediately... hahaha. :)

Watched Evan Almighty during Youth Camp and had a few 'revelation'....

1. If God chose you to save all the animals, you only need to build the ark, the animals will come to you.... even if you don't want them to come to you...
2. God will provide opportunities for you to fulfill His plan
3. God will tell the stakeholders in His plan about His plan so that they can work together with you.



Here's the problem.... God arranged for me to build an 'Ark'. The 'animals' are flocking to me without me initiating ... this proves that He indeed wants me to build the 'Ark'.
However, the opportunities for me to fulfill His plan is not present!!! I do not have the opportunities!!!

Seems like the stakeholders in this 'Ark' are not receiving the same message from God! If God wants me to do this thing, shouldn't the people around receive the same message too? How do I explain the flocking of the 'animals' towards me in the process of building the 'Ark'? Is God providing me assurance that He indeed wants me to build it?

Instead, the conditions around me seemed hostile to the big picture. I do not get support from those who are supposed to be there to support me! This would result in me not finishing the 'Ark' in time! Does God want the Ark to sink?

Sometimes I think I'm just like an undercover in those hongkong movies...


Kelly Chan don't understand me


I'm alone


黄秋生 is not providing me directions


Will Andy be the winner at the end of the day? (Ark sinks)

Or I should just quit and join the baddies.......

I'm giving God an undisclosed period of time, if things don't go well still, I'm moving out of Youth Ministry..... And I'll join Andy in being the 'police' instead!

God help me! You want me to build the Ark, make the conditions suitable... I cannot work when its raining everyday... I'll get a cold and maybe fall sick and die.....

(haha, for those who have absolutely no idea what I'm talking about, just ignore me.... you'll never understand anyway... I have too much ink!)

While the chefs are working, we are slacking.....



Makan time!!!


Worm in the lettuce!!! Yummy!


After dinner entertainment

Ian's first day .....


Guess all kids dread going to school huh? I enjoy going to school but dread exams....

Phi's mischieviousness



Don't know whether to scold her or to laugh!!!

She wants to be kept in the box used to contain her toys.....


Phi @ the playground



Ian @ the arcade

I've had like 3 long long meetings from saturday afternoon till now.... so tired. Things I propose did not really go through..... things I cheong did not really turn out the way it was supposed to be.... etc....

Captains ball is back! Went to punggol CC to play ... erm... watch them play and had dinner at Hougang Mall before proceeding for my final meeting in church. Ended the meeting at 11.45... cool huh?

Finishing my final touches to my National Innovation and Quality Circle Convention presentation tomorrow... Hope I get the Star award.... so that I can further confirm that God gave me the gift of the gap to talk... :)

Read somebody's blog today and realised that all humans, no matter how strong, still have their weakness one... when they are alone with the computer, feelings tend to flow freely... ....

Whats my mission in the youth ministry? Is it just to go through everyweek's program? Or is there something bigger..... Do I extend my help to people who have premarital sex freely? Do I extend my help to people who have their individual struggles? Do I extend my help to people who are facing relational problems? Do I just offer my help to guys because Guy cannot counsel girls??? I think I better function the way God prompts and ignore what the whole world thinks of me... i shall not conform to the thinking of the world... for we are not of the world.

Trying to get Pamela to come back to God... she's been pretty alone these few months...

Pamela, if you hear me, its about time.

The others, if you hear the message, its also about time. I don't have all eternity to help you guys.

Myself, get a grip on yourself...... What is your calling?